It isn’t unusual for people to ask me what I love to do, and of course, I respond with “writing or literature”, and it is even more common for people to ask me why. And truth is, there are so many reasons why I right, that I don’t even realize them half the time. The first thing that comes to my mind of course is because I love it, but I have a much deeper passion than simply that.
When I write, I discover who I am. The words pile into my mind and spill out through the ink, forming sentences which together combine into paragraphs and pages. I write to escape from my reality and come into a safe space, where I feel completely at home, myself, at peace, and with my mother. Yet, I also write to figure out my reality. All of my thoughts are so tangled in my mind, so I type or write them out, and I can find solutions and finally begin to make sense of everything. I write to share my story. I promised my mom I would change the world for her, and this is my first step I am taking. I want to open up people’s point of views and introduce them to a side of life they never realized existed. I write to let people know they are not alone. I have been through so much, and I know I certainly would have wanted someone to let me know I wasn’t alone, so I will be that person for those with parents suffering from loss or cancer. I will be that person for those with a sibling who ran away. I will be that person for those who have been bullied horrifically. I will be that person for those who have felt utterly alone, even if they weren’t.
Writing is a soul part of who I am. When I grow old enough, I am certain you will see my books on the shelves at your local bookstore, and maybe some collaborating with John Green (my favorite author ever). I will be turning my books into movies, and changing people’s perspectives. I will be changing the world for my mama.
Arden, you are truly amazing!!!!! I am so sorry that you had to experience such a terrible loss. No one and I mean no one should ever have to go through something like this! I hope you know that I will always be there for you if you ever need someone to lean on, a shoulder to cry on, or even someone yo cry with (because god knows I am gushing with hormones hahaha) I love reading your blog because your words are so powerful, they open my mind and fill it with completely new thoughts and help me figure my way through my own problems. You are so pretty too!!! Any guy would be lucky to have you in their lives (just stay away from the punks, they don’t deserve you!) you have the best smile and always know how to make others laugh even if you are feeling blue. You are the nicest person I have ever met in my ENTIRE LIFE!!! I really hope we can get closer, especially since we have so much time over the summer ahead. I am sorry if I make it awkward when we talk it just that I am just…. socially disabled! I never know what to say and I really need to work on that.
I know that I probably have no clue what it feels like to go through what you have been going through lately but I am always free to talk and spill out emotions with you. I hate hearing that you feel alone.. It really just breaks my heart into a billion catrillion pieces! I wish I could do something about it… It have so much more I want to say that I simply just have words for. I love you Arden (as a friend 😉 ) and I hope I can get to know you even better!